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hey. i won't be updating this for quite a long time. hai. ima miss you guys. hehe. ryt now, i have two heavy bags at the fot of my bed. from katips to cavite, dala-dala ko yun.

hai, lord. engeng car.

haha. basta. kaya ko to. basta wala lang akong makikitang atenista on the way.

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new year ahead. waaaaah. scary. ang scary rin naman ng last year. shit, magse-senti ata ako. sus. wookie lang yun. para masaya tayong lahat.

sus. i fought with my closest friends, i broke a commitment, i realized that not everyone will be beside me holding a shovel while i stand in front of a dead body. cool-off kami ni lord. i opened something withing me. i had to face the truth a couple of times.

i fell in love. hard. i learned to let go. i learned how to compromise. i found my lifelong friends (cuz no matter how far i run away, no matter how hard i shake them off, they will always find a way to drag me back to them.)

i lived away from home. reality has been my constant companion. i learned to take risks. i made new friends.

i gained weight. (next year, i am going to lose it!!!)

i learned to be carefree. sheeeht, dati seryoso ako!!!

i tested my belief that money isn't everything and i still believe that.

haaa!!! i haven't smoked! tas ende pa rin ako nalalasing!!! (haha, pano ba naman, even if it's my mom and dad who give me liquor, i still think it's the most disgusting thing everrrr.)

i realized that im not really cut out to be an S.O.S. i haven't failed a subject and im surviving college, baby!!! not to mention p.e. and college freaking math.

im wearing heeels!!!

i learned to say goodbye. i learned to laugh about the past, like i always promised myself that i would. ive battled some inner demons--not all, mind you... but enough to make a dent.

im polishing my juvenilia but i know i still need to be more diligent. but then, i realized that even though i may write mainstream fiction from time to time, they will always have a touch of macabre in them. or they'll just be plan dark. hmmm. it's sex and drugs and rock and roll, just like meatloaf said. and that's really what im feeling like doing for the rest of my life.

there's more. but i don't want to bore you. just the usual 16-year-old rantings and ramblings. and it's positively whacked.

god, im going to do something aposobalutely crazy next year. im gonna be me and it'll be hell and back, im sure!!!

whaaaaaaaaaaa!!! froootkeyk!!! uwi na ko, babush!!!

tiMe stoOd sTilL

if you're wondering why wala akong posts re the weekend, well... kasi ganito yun. to paraphrase stephen king, the greatest things are often the hardest things to say.

basta. i had fun. it was the greatest. and i can't wait to go back.

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read the langoliers by stephen king. it made me scream. did terrible things to my subconscious. and now im a wreck. ima have a hard time riding a plane in the near future.

but it's all worth it.

diSiNteGrAtiOn

she like my poems, my fiction. but of course, there was sumthing wrong with them. syempre naman. haha. kung wala, eh di bat ende natanggap? but im still bitter though, nyahaha. nakita ko kasi yung book launch poster. waaaah, cry, cry...

they're asking me to join the workshop next year. so... why didn't i join this year's? you know the saying: too much, too soon.

waaaah.

im going home. the post-delibs were the only reason why i stayed this long in katips. ok, that's a lie. truth is, im lazy. can't i just sleep? and then when i wake up, i'll be wherever i have to be, with my stuff?

ende pwede.

so now im thinking if i go home now or tomorrow... haaaai. bukas na lang. tinatamad talaga ako eh. haha. khuleeet.

hafta go to ze vank.

uGh

i feel like barfing. or shitting. or just fainting. yeah. that's it. i wanna pass out so i won't feel.

had xmas party with m02. wicked.

(say with scottish accent) im wearing a skirt.

tiGht aSs

sayang. ende ako nakapunta sa oblation. tsk, tsk, tsk. that was supposed to be one of my goals pag nag-enroll ako sa up: watch naked men run through school. naked. hahaha... :p eh im in arneow na eh. grumble, grumble. snort, snort.

urrrrgh. grrreat day. last classes sa math, filipino and arnis. never mind na pagbalik ko eh limot ko na yung math lessons, na ang daming holiday homework, na may practicals sa arnis the first day back. wala yun. haha. basta. last day. im aiming for an earlier break. since no more classes sa tuesday, dapat wala na ring english at lit (cuz, sana, wala na ring classes sa bota)... haha. monday pa lang, lalayas na ko, bwahaha...

mom told dad na about the--

--aystupid!isenteveryoneintheyahoogroupsmyfilipinoproject!!!waaaah!!!--

--wrestling thing. sabi raw ni dad hanggang 400 lang kami unless i win tickets. haha. mom tells me na magtipid-tipid na ko para sa binoculars, wahahaha!!! :D khoool. okei lang. haha. basta andun.

i want this so bad.

(she's getting a freaking job at this freaking magazine?! what the fuck?!)

ewan ba.

cat has a stalker. i want to buy night shift. i got an ateneo shirt. ang dami ko pang gagawin.

toodles.

nSk hAs beEn rEduCed tO a puLp

mom said that the worst literary critics--meaning the ones who can make you cry buckets--are often frustrated writers. haha, comforting. well, i just compared, not in so few words, the play "nasaan si kaliwete?" to dog poop.

what does that say about me? hahaha.

eniwei, im done. yes, i know that it's 1:30. sooowaht? haha..

tas hindi ako nakapunta dun sa fairytale thingy ng heights cuz i slept thru it. haha, toreeeeh verne.

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i got my, er, "script" for this concert thing on friday... perpetual emcee akosh. (syempre, ende ako magsasayaw kasi ende ako marunong tas hindi ako kakanta because my classmates don't really think i sing so good. MFers... xp) basta. it goes sumthing like this... im sure kelly wrote this piece of crap: (i got this verbatim!)

jozelle: laies and gentlemen, ateneo vs. up, Pamela and the first ever Ms. HHIS Elisha

Pam: Shang, kanina pa tayo sayaw dun pero para kanino ba ang lahat ng ito?

Shang: ang bawat estudyanteng ga-graduate sa Harrell horne ay automatically member ng Alumni Association.

Pam: Ibig sabihin, ito ang napiling project ngayon na kabilang sa alumni?

Shang: Oo, at ang purpose nito ay makapagbigay ng natatanging pamasko sa mga bata sa isaang foundation

Pam: at hindi ibig sabihin nito na ang alumni lang ang nakatulongpati kayo.

Shang: Ladies and gentlemen, lets watch this .. (Tapos lalabas ung powerpoint na picture ng mga bata ang instrumental music)

shit. that is crap. bwahahaha. on second thought, huwag na lang kayo pumunta, hahaha... :p

wArE: eMo pOst

road to wrestlemania aside, im feeling shitty so skip this post. i just need to... well, put it into words. so skip. skip. skip.

ugh. i am dirt poor, haha. ive never ever given the impression that i had loads of moolah. pero grabe, sheeeht, ang dami na talagang probems, haha. it makes me sooo guilty talaga na i went shopping this sunday. man, oh man. naku naman, sasha.

im really going to study harder. really. i made promises. i have obligations. and i WANT to do all of them.

im so sorry, really.

i need to do something. im in such a jam.

i can't go on. so let's just please get on with our lives. ima do my freaking review for fil, then ill read steve king whyl i eat the brownies my "mommy" gave me. and then i'll go back to school to learn more about sexuality and the perverse in fairytales.

peace out, babeeeehs.

loCa

haha. daz me. naku po. maingay na naman ako. si nikay kasi eh, haha... so, what caused me to burst out of my one day of quietness?

WWE RAW IS COMING TO THE PHILIPPINES ON FEBRUARY 24, 2006!!!

see here : http://www.wwe.com/worldwide/philippines1/

i still can't get over it.

my gas, i am sooooo giddy. like nikay said, "i've been waiting for this all my life!" ohmygosh, ohmygosh, ohmygosh!!! grabeeeh. i wanna meet them, sheeeeeeht!!! sobra na talaga to! waaaah!!! i wanna do that "you can't see me" thing and i wanna catch triple h's spit in a bottle, haha... i wanna jive to the sound of hbk's boy toy (i think im cute... i know im sexy...) waaaah!!! and i wanna see big boobs! hahaha, :p

grabeeeeeeeh!!! wah, ewan ko ba. im so giddy, haha. ive never been this giddy, grabe... I WANT TO WATCH IT. im going to join every contest related to it. im gonna go there, demmit. basta!!! i have to. i really haaaaaave to. shit, shit, shit!!!

waaaah. naku, naku, naku. it's overwhelming, grabe. nosebleed.

i want to cry. im so happy... ;p

im thinking what posters i'll bring na. syempre, ill have to get one of those uber-powerful cameras kasi, if i dont win any contests, ill be super-far away. tas what are the things i'll ask them to sign? ick, what if they don't like me?!

someone slap me para matauhan naman akosh... ;p


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mandy moore will be playing the rock's wife tas sarah michelle gellar will be his girlfriend at he same time. wadapak?! mandy freaking moore?


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my mom's kinda pissed, hehe... february 24th, nasa hongkong siya, haha... rineschedule na nga niya before eh tas may wwe, haha. malas... bwahaha...

if she's not there, it'll be dad who's gonna be with the boys... mom's the bigger wrestling fan. awww... so now, she's hoping for a terrorist attack so malipat naman nila. or that wwe go to hongkong whyl she's there... tas, tahimik siya. sabi niya, "ay, wag! mas mahal ang tickets dito!"

speaking of tickets: 400, 800, 2000, 3300. hai. makakabili na ko ng mp3 player nyan. waaaah. pero i want this so much, it hurts. grabeeeeeh.

*i will now be accepting donations for the payment of my tickets sa wwe, hehe... :p

tHe suShi mAster cHef rEtuRns

ze coach whose name has completely flown from my head has returned. pramis. malayo pa lang, nakita ko na siya, full costume. syempre, with him, comes one of the most traumatic experiences of my life. haha. i was called sa harap ng buong class -- and syempre, kita na rin ako ng buong cov courts! -- to demonstrate (more like make a fool of myself) the four arnis patterns. waaaah.

haha, so it wasn't as scary as i had expected it to be. kasi naman, underneath those tough guy exteriors ng mga coach namin, there lie softies. they're like big teddy bears with sticks.

hehe. im getting good at it. pero, naiimagine ko na sarili ko cringing at the finals.

haha. no pain, no gain. babeeeeh.

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i know what you want to know. have i been quiet? have i shut my mouth? have i mentally given myself a beating whenever i thought of something trivially funny?

yep.

haha. not much but yep. i think p.e.'s excused. haha. i needed to have fun there and being quiet and shit just wouldn't cut it.

basta. yun. people noticed na nga eh. uh. ganun ba talaga ako kaingay na if i shut up for one class, all hell breaks loose?!

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had kuhooool revelations today. i managed to forget about the existence about this guy for one class! haha... even if i shared the same room with the wuss. when the bell rang, i stood up, turned around, saw sumthing of his and then it hit me. "sheeeeht, nakalimutan ko si _____."

wahoo.

tas si migs nakita ko. ewan. epal. wa na siya. haha. basta. andun siya. looked at me. i mentally froze. he looked away. and i felt relieved. i mean... parang, "waaaah! he still doesn't know me, hehe..." tas ewan ko. wala. aydunker na if he won't even blink if i paraded in front of him in an outift reminiscent of jLo's green "dress." masaya yung feeling.

my guidance counselor told me na kaya siguro wala akong major problems is cuz ala akong lovelife. haha. uy, ma'am, meron naman no. in my head. nyahahahaha.

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during fil, i gleefully imagined myself tweezing the stubble on prof baldy's head. ewan ko rin sa kanya. itmahsheit.

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"wala ka naman palang problema." that was what my gc told me. my wait for the appointment was longer than it. 15 mins lng ako andun. half the time, wala si ma'am kasi nag-cr siya, haha. she just told me to write stuff on a piece of scratch paper.

paglabas ko dun, naisip ko na, "ohmahgulay. wala akong problema. haha. pinapalaki ko lang talaga yung maliliit na bagay. wow. saya. kahit naman yung money matters, oki lang. ive been through worse and i can get out of this easily. hanep."

haiii. tas nakonsensya rin ako. tinanong ako ng gc if hindi na ko crammer. syempre, i said yes. come on, give me credit. im in this school to make a living out of lying. basta. ende na ko crammer, wahaha.

teka. i have a long test tomorrow, a thick handout to read, an essay to pass and a review to make. haneeeeeeeep.

fLasHbAck, siLenCe

my blockmates have been telling me what a loudmouth i was during orsem. cringe. fuckshit. people who can't seem to be able to shut their mouths have always been my pet peeves. take geny for instance. and then--ach!--i'm one of them. hai. i remember, during my first week back from ateneo. i was talking to my mommy. then, suddenly, she sat up straighter and looked at me with something akin to horror. she told me, "damn it, you're perky!" we both stared at each other. and then, in chirpy tones, i said, "i know!"

crap. i remember one time. long ago. hazy memory. i had this guy friend. yun. tas one day, while i was being particularly chatty, he told me, "shang, talak ka nang talak!" that STUNNED me actually. crap. same horrified look on my face, i'd say. ugh. me, talakera. sheeeht.

so the next several days, almost more than a week, i shut up. not COMPLETELY mind you. i just, well, quieted down. no more stories about my life that people don't want to hear. no more senseless chatter about how [insert latest crush here] looks so hot that day. no more. wala. i just shut up. pag may barkada gathering, which was often, i listened, laughed [silently] but mostly, i read a book. by god, i was being QUIET!!!

tas, one day uli, out of nowhere, same guy sort of implodes during dismissal, just as the prof was going out the door. he said, "putcha, ano ba problema mo?"

blink. "ha?"

"bakit ba ang tahi-tahimik mo?!?!?!?!"

blink. glare. "bat di mo subukan? it'll do a lot of us here good!"

"hindi yun yung point!" at this point, people have stopped pretending that they're not staring. said prof was at the doorway smirking at the both of us.

"well, then, what IS the point?" syempre, umuusok na ko. english na, haha.

"ang tahimik mo!"

"bawal?"

"hindi bagay!"

"oh, go fu--" tas i remembered that a prof was still there. sure, she wudnt have batted an eyelash but i didnt feel comfy cussing in front of a teacher. never mind my classmates. they know i curse like a sailor. so, i said, "go screw yourself and make noise THERE!" that was lame, i know, but during the time, i felt triumphant.

syempre, a good fight wouldn't be complete without the classic walk-out. haha.

the next day, during flag ceremony, we talked about last night's episode of some reality show. same prof, watching over us, didn't tell us to shut up. i had done enough of that.

haaaaaaaaaai.

sige. i'll shut up na rin. fine. at least, i'll no longer see my classmates spacing out while im in the middle of my numerous rants.

yes, that'll be nice. sasha shuts up.

but i warn you. since i won't be as noisy as before, mas mahaba mga post ko. haha, kelangan talaga ilabas eh. wahoo.

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i think one of the yardsticks i use to "measure" friendship is the silences. if i'm comfortable with the silence between two or more people, including myself, im okay. you know the feeling: you don't need to say anything at all. you just have to be there. one's reading a book, one's playing gameboy, two are playing the piano, two are playing chess, two are playing table tennis. one's on the swing, singing to herself. one's texting. yun. mga tipong ganun. you don't need to talk but it--don't make me explain what "it" is--is there.

i miss you, peepz. [haha, naaalala ko si ryan! go, sunog-baga boys!!! xp] kilala niyo na kung sino kayo.

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listening to usher and alicia keys, nelly and kelly. omg!!! memories, haha. zelle, miss na talaga kita!!! :p

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josh groban is making me cry. i sobbed when stephanie macmahon came on. i cried when i finally got away from that nightmare i was afraid i could never wake up from.

hormones.

even the randomization visualization sa media player makes me want to go hysterical.
someday, i'll laugh at all this. when will someday arrive?

i sTilL haVent fOund wHat iM loOkinG fOr

no still life with woodpecker. wala talaga. i wanted to weep in frustration pero gabie was in a hurry.

gabie and i went to sm megamall. sheeht, pagod. we left the dorm at 9 tas we got there 45 mins. later. i bought sooooooo many things. nakaka-guilty, hehe... pero masay naman. im happy. wala aking pera--as in wala!!! (i took an advance for nxt week's allowance, hehe, bad.) wala na talaga akong pera. tas wala pa kong ateneo shirt for dad tas magbabayad pa ko ng laundry and yung laptop fees. omg.

tas wala pa kong regalo kay mom kasi wala talagang still life with woodpecker!!! sheeeeht!!!

sige. gagawa pa ko ng napakaraming assignment!!!

eScApe

tumakas na ko. yun. lumipad paalis. i won't be going back until my lola arrives from the states. haha. that's 6 bloody months. fine. happy.

ten-ten, tita byn, tito randy and the bump that is to be named ashley gwyneth was there. bearable, beybi.

ai, kahapon pala, around 10:00 my mom arrived sa pque. she slept there tas madaling-araw, umalis din siya. dpat nga uuwi pa siya sa cavite cuz dad was... hrm-hrm. wala. yun.

basta. umalis na ko. bus ride. lrt, where i missed the train and had to wait for the next one tas andun si gabie. wah. tired, happy to escape.

ingat, mameeh lily!!!

tas i watched the raw tribute. i cried.

viva la raza!!!

sHoVe iT uP yOur asS!

grah. kaasar ang pota!!! mrrrrfffckerrrrssss!!! i DID not eat any of your paking chocolates! sure, i ate sum of the nuts but that's NOT the point. the point is, you uppity, good-for-nothing, all-hail-me, bitch in spandex--how dare you go behind my back and tell practically everyone in this family that ive been stealing your stuff?! fuck you to hell and back, damn it. tangina mo. puneta! gago. drown in ur own fucking shit, slut!

hindi pa ko tapos, puta!

tas tinabi ko na diba? tinabi ko na. malayo na sa box. nasa kwarto na nga ni mommy lily. sa sulok. dun sa side na katabi ng mga gamit ko. aba, puneta, anong karapatan mong halnungkatin yung mga gamit ko? fuck you!!! to see kung ilang mac and cheese and meron ako? fucker, get a life!!!

you. your gay husband. your autistic, egotistical little boy. and that daughter who's exactly like you! fuck you all to hell. or to canada!!!

everyone wishes so.

aarrrrgh.

how the fuck could you tell my mom that? how could you turn her against me? make me look bad to her?!?!?!

sheeeht you, bahala ka sa miserable life mo, bruja! tangina mo.

bitch, bitch, bitch, beeeeeeeeeeeetch!!!

pHotOs tRansFerRed!!!

success story:

after the hell of travel, i faced another demon!!! hehe... shallow, girl!!! eniwes, i installed the nokia pc suite for daddy poop's cel... haha, dalawang oras rin akong nangalikot!!! shhheeeeht to oh, may threats pa na baka ma-wipe out yung memory ng comp ko... basta. success!!! haha...

uploaded pix (i camwhored... ^_^) sa comp ko... tas i uploaded the granfeyrents' theme songsa cel... it's soooo cute...

here are the pix from last week:

that's tito randy and me... yung may-ari ng green ponytail is my lola... haha. in this pic, tita bobyn was trying out the camphone... haatang sabik ampu... :]

wala, making faces... pleading for a celfun like this...

oh, ganda ng lola ko, no? haha... daz my mommy lily... <3

...teka, ang bobo ng photoblogger. negstaym na lang yung continuation!!!

aY, stResS...

araguy. josme oh. what a weeeeeird day. haha... so, di ba i left na for pque? well, andito na ko and the events leading to me being here are uber-crazy. urgh. okay lang yung rain. gets ko na umuulan paminsan-minsan at kahit anong reklamo ko, ende mawawala bigla yan. so im khool with that. and ayoko lang yung... arrrrgh.

it's not much looking back pero whyl it was happening, super nakakaasar. sa lrt, i got onto the platform as the train whizzed by. fine, i waited 8 minutes. tas nung dun na sa sakayan ng fti, i had to wait for more than an hour, amidst chain smokers!!! (grumble-grumble)... may time nga na umalis na muna ko. pumunta ko sa 7-11 sa tapat ng terminal to buy load [i dnt wanna buy load cuz i can get nman from mommy lily or mommy] pero i had to this tym cuz i was gonna text mom kung ano yung pwede kong alternate route... tas nung naloadan na ko, nakita ko, yung mga kasama ko sa pila e sumasakay sa van!!! waaaaah!!!

omg, ang dami pa talagang nangyari. pochi. hrmm, ranging from little gremlin children tapping at the car windows, wrestling on top of the car's hood to the payment-collector insulting the woman beside me cuz of her weight. nakakabanaaaaaaaas!!!

enihus, im here now. en daz wat cawnts.

pOrtRait oF mY laAaAaAb!!!

hahaha. theme song ng lolo't lola ko na kelangan kong i-load sa cel ni daddy poop (my lolo.) wala lang. lss. ang cute. nyahaha.

warning: this post contains more mundanity as usual, peppered with stuff about my writing, which, i am sure, will never interest you. so skip.

it's a gloomy day outside and i better get my ass off this bed if im gonna make it to gateway before the rain gets me. well, since when have i done the "better" thing? hmm. basta. imagothere. kelangan. bago ko abutan ng kung anu-ano pang mga demonyo't demonyita sa buhay ko.

ay... know what? aila (cw blokmeyt) got sum contrib forms from those minimalist shitstains tas it said there na sa december 12 pa yung deadline!!! wadapak?! kaasar talaga yung mga kulangot na yun!!! rawr!!! but i still submitted the thingies i, er, wrote. recycled is more like it. hai. the only short story is submitted was written nung third year ata nun. bakit? wala lang. i was just awake in the middle of the nyt tas i decided, wat ze hell? so yun. i wrote it all on longhand. it's computerized now and i edited sum of it to polish the shit but yun. that's that. knowing heights, im sure they won't accept it. sus. mainstream lang daw sila. minimalist shitstains. narrow-minded globules of snot!!!

aherm. so, it was entitled twisted angel cuz it's about this angel of death who "protects" this one girl. basta. i like it actually. it's one of my better acorns. i changed the title to bad dreams, bad wakings cuz it sounds more mature, nyehehe... submitted two more pretentious poems -- pretentious because they were the work of a prose writer. one was about being free -- i continued that metaphor from english... yung abandon shit. i called it metafora. and one was entitled the serenade of lily robbins. it's kinda like love. but not gushy love. sexual, hateful, intense, consuming love.

im thinking to submit more for the december 12 deadline. hai. i'll take it as a sign. thanks, lord.

o, read na here uli:

ay, pucha. umuulan na!!! i havent packed yet!!! waaaah. haha, yan kasi. kung anu-ano pa kasi ang ginagawa! buti nga!!!

sige. toodles. next post, paranaque.

wRiteR's efFiNg bLocK

i can't write. can't. my mind's gone haywire and my hormones are rampaging. (don't ask.)

if i can't come up with a decent story by, say, 3:30 PM, i will submit one of my "acorns"--stories ive stored over time, just in case i need to pass sumthing in the middle of a writer's block. parang ngayon.

somebody save me.

paRa mAsaYa

weirdo day. from 1-8 pm, tulog ang lelang mo. haha. ewan ko ba. maybe because i slept at the ungodly hour of 3 am kahapon. [no ginawa ko? wala. kalokohan.] sabi ko pa na im going to write the moment i get home hanggang bukas. [purda heights thing] tas yun. i opened my laptop. 30 minutes later, i was asleep.

i woke up at 7:44.

wowza. so now, i have a whopping headache and my eyes are red, baby. and still no story. sus. wala pa ngang ideas. jusme. kamon.

nyahaha. gimme ideas. anyone.

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fufu, sumthing hapnd sa english today. i bought a donut for jams. round and shiny. tas binigay niya sakin! waaah! sabi niya na she had breakfast already tas busog na raw siya. wow. wow. so ako kumain ng donut, haha. ang dating nun, bumili ako ng donut para sakin pero binalot ko at binigay ko kay jams. wadapak?!

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botany. my brain goes on hibernate.

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i know how to play bridge na. me-ann [roommie] taught us. as in everyone in the dorm. saya. pero grabe si me-ann!!! obssessed si gaga! haha, napakasungit! nyahaha... walang pasensya sa newbies... :D tas si geny nakalaro rin namin. ang yabang ng pu, hehe... ala lang. nakakabaliw.

pero marunong na ko. dat means, may bago na kaming paglalaruan sa pasko. haha.

i will make sense when i do.

eDwArd sCisSoRhaNds

i luv him. pramis. peyburit ko na.

nyahaha. nareinforce ang long-established general timeless truth na johnny depp is hot. haha. even in that character. basta. cute. i lurve him sooo mats!

ive always wanted to watch the movie. my mom loves it tas i love the johnny depp and tim burton team-ups. tas ngayon, napanood ko na. i shall watch it again. haaaaai.

kim: hold me.
edward scissorhands: i can't.

waaaaaaaah!!!

the movie's so sad... so gothic, so comic... so... johnny depp. hahaha. basta. ahlavhet.

...teka. dapat tulog na ko, ah. 7:30 pa pasok ko bukas, sheeeht.

sAbi nAng siNga!!!

ay, naku. singhot, singhot, singhot. wala. barado parin ang aking nowshe. pero this time, both nostrils na. taray.

im tired. dead tired. i was halfway to home na after arnis class [wala si sir so no quiz] when i remembered na hindi ko nakuha yung pesteng hand-out sa english. wow. so bumalik ako. syempre, naglakad ako. ako pa, eh im so stingy.

sus. i need to rest. sleep. die. ...cuz any moment, ima keel over and that's that. pero, demmmit, kelangan ko pang basahin yung paking handout -- pucha, ang kapal!!! -- sa english. grrrrrowl...

sash, gising kang maaga bukas kze pupunta ka pa sa cello's para bumili ng regalo ni ____.

ai, oo nga.

...hrm. im still luking for still life with woodpecker. kaaasaarrr. uy, tulong naman o... pleeeeze?

hargh. the things i do pur lab.

tas there's this horror short-story competition. ima join it, nyahaha.

uy, math sucked. i answered everything but ende ko feel yung answers ko, haha. pero nagulat ako, ang dali, pakshet... pero ende ko nasagutan ng tama lahat, bwahaha. basta, complicated. a, eto na lang: kala ko i'll have a heart attack pero yun pala shock lang, haha.

geny keeps saying "rawr." as in, like, every other word. tama na, demmit! nakakabanas!

rawr.

ay, putcha.

tHe aFteRmaTh

hahaha... sabi ni verne na he isn't scared of math... but the aftermath... nyork-nyork-nyork-nyork!!!

by all means, i shud be sleeping. or studying. wow. haha. none of the above.

uuuy, check this out... creepy much da feektyur!!! http://msnbc.msn.com/id/10152429

yuckers, bwahaha...

sus. tulog na ko. [really now?] will kwento tomorrow... i think... we'll see... :p

hiGh poWer obJeCtiVe

fuckin weird day, man... argh. ryt now, kumakalam yung tummy ko, hehe... grabe, im sooo hunger... naku, ang dami ko pang gagawin tomorrow. aitekangalang. one at a tym.

uhm. i cut english kasi gumising ako 7 na, haha... saya. tas 15 minutes ako sa banyo kze ang bango nung sabon, haha. eniwes, punta ko ng school at 8 na. kumain pa ko ng breakfast--1 pc of burnt toast and butter. i was feeling puke-y pero pasok pa rin ng school!!!

punta kong libe to photocopy ang pakshet na napakaraming handouts ni prof baldy na i need to read by tomorrow. wow. wooooow. andun sila verne, cor, trish, joana, paolo... teka, may nakalimutan ba ko? enihus, i had my thingies xeroxed dun sa filipiniana section and guess who was there?

si batista, nyork-nyork.

HAHAHAHA... ende ko pa pala minemention si batista, hehe... teka, eto, sidetrippin...

[there's this guy sa rsf. first weeks pa lang ng first sem, nakikita ko na siya pero lagi dun sa ilab. wala lang. kamukha niya si batista. hehe. tas he always has this poker face on. hihihi...

tas second sem rolled around and i see him EVERYWHERE. promise. lalo na pag before mag-botany. hehe. malapit lang yung classroom niya samin. i get to see him. ive met his eyes but we haven't really, er, acknowledged each other's existence. basta. he's interesting.]

yun. nasa libe siya, poring over a complicated math-looking thingy. (he's taking MA 21... hehe. stalker ako...) yun. ganda ng araw ko. haha.

nag-lit. the red wheelbarrow. i like it. it's minimalist shitstain, haha... (sa prose, ayaw ko minimalist pero sa poetry, oki lang, hehe...)

tas botaneeeh. tas botaneeeh uli. sarap ng lab. kuleeeht ni candy cutie, este, marco. si gago. kinuha lahat ng specimens ko tas yung iisang specimen niya--yung paking potato--ende makita sa microscope... hehe... basta, duling ako pagkatapos.

ai, before botany pala, andun uli si 'batista'... he was holding a book open (complicated math-looking thingy) tas he was smiling at the antics of two of his classmates--boy and girl, naghaharutan :)... yun. i saw him smile. tas i met his eyes. tas yun na. haha. kasama ko si verne nun eh. i think he was wondering why i spaced out for a whileee... toreeeh, verne. i always do that. it's not just you, hehe...

im home. been trying to look for still life with woodpecker by tom (tim?) robbins. lahat na. national, fully booked. basta. hahanapin ko yun for my mameeeh. haha. [cnt read my blog na kze may child protection thingy software yung comps sa office niya...]

o yan. naghanap na ko ng amino acids at macromolecules at friendster acct ng namatay na intelektwal... hai. tas may quiz kami sa math tomorrow, kanina ko lang nalaman.

waaaaah!!!!

frOzeN suN

may guidon na pala last week. hehe, bat ende ko napansin? hmmm.

wala lang. i got an email kasi bwt the dress code, wc was nasa guidon daw. 1 + 1 = 2. yehey.

aherm.

im at the dorm na... after a solo trip from sm bicutan on a bus. haha. dapat magsho-shopping pa kami but puro offline yung mga atm. pucha naman oh. ang dami na naming pinuntahan eh. haaaai. eniwes, yun. nag-bus ako. exciting, haha. labo. tas bumaba ako sa farmer's but it was a different angle, hehe... nagtanong-tanong pa ko kung asan yung gateway... naks, im soooo good. haha.

we have an aris check-up sa tuesday. naikupo.

hi nikay.

hindi ko prn napanood yung smackdown. hai,, buhay oh.

gunayt.

oG uhOg, pArt tWo

waaah. ayoko na. haha. what am i talking about?! wala. avzolootleee natin!!!

i just remembered na i didn't get to watch the raw tribute to eddie guerrero last night... asan ba ko nun? ah, i remember. palabas kami nung cellphone shop to withdraw moolah. hai. sayang. di bale. may replay naman. sana matyempuhan ko... hmmm. hai... chenelyn kemergoo. i am not making sense, babeeeeh.

sinisipon pa rin ako. aching ako ng aching. friday pa to. sheeht, idonwanaveesick.

(achoo. sniff. sniff.)

my mooommmie and mah bruthers are here. hehe. all in all, lima lang yung gumaganang kamay sa kanila, bwahahaha!!!

(singhot, singhot...) ;p -- heya, faye!!!

oG uhOg

da return op da cambak.

aysiya, sinisipon ako!!! grrrr. ende ako makahinga tas tumutulo pa!!! egh.

i wanna say hi to:

sAndi, veRne, nAtsUmAy, jEv, apRiL, zelLe, sAsha (hehe, aq un eh... :p), mY moMmy...

bakeeht? ala lang.

sheeht, i need to sleep. grabe. river na ang aking sipon.

vhavush.

siNo si mAx?!

ano? haha. nebermaynd. ikukuwento ko naman lahat eh.

so. let's start. im in paranaque right now wiz my lola, my tita bobyn, tito randy and ten-ten. and don't forget the bump in tita byn's tummy who's to be named ashley gwyneth... (she's supposed to be gwyneth zoe but obvious naman bakit medyo masagwa. hoi, bad thots!!! may cuzin na kasi akong chloe. eh it rhymes. gets na? ikaw--sama ng nasa isip mo!! sus!) galing kaming makati. what did we do? one of my most peyburit hobbies!!! spend my lola's money!!! :D

eniwes, my lola's going sa states sa 10th so ive been hinting na i waaaant an iPod. haha. selfish. (all my ninongs and ninangs are there. think 16 years worth of christmases and birthdays...o kaya graduating valedictorian. o kaya having my work published. o kaya getting into ateneo... haha. naningil...) basta. kaya yun. never mind my guilty conscience... taghirap na ang mundo pero aydonker!!!

ahem. punta kaming makati with tita bobyn and tito randy. saya. we bought a new cellphone for daddy poop. wahoo!!! ang ganda, pramis!!! 6630. ahlavet, supeerrrr. may cam, video, mp3. chuchu. basta. it's ze best... parang ayoko na ng iPod. bili nyo na lng akoh ng cel na to, masaya na ko... hehe. saya nung day. ^_^ ...we ate at max's. yun. hilyt.

hmmm... i was supposed to upload the pix in2 this thing (im using the retarded PC sa pque kze i left my laptop sa dorm) but ayaw eh. retarded nga, daba?! grrr. nakakabanas. eh di dapat ang dami ko nang peeektyurs. tas may bago pa kong pang-friendster, hehe...

bought grrrreat jeans. tas, parang Fate made her presence known nung magbabayd na kami. haha. i saw this wonderful batista shirt. pramis, ang saya. destiny, sheeeht. hehe. i love that shirt na... haha, na-overshadow ang perfect jeans na nabili ko sa pre-teen section at yung mustard shirt that sez "crazy for chocolate." haha. authentic wwe merchandise ang lelang mo!!!

so what kung ende ako nakabili ng underwear? haha, ang sagwa!!! dyoklang. ill go shopping next time. like, tomorrow, when my mom's here. i hope may pera pa kami, haha... :D

i bought my "baby" -- sa kris kringle -- a cute gift from toy kingdom, hehe... it's a violet bone that sez "hug me" with a monkey wrapped around it. they're 2 different toys but pinaghalo ko, hehe... gaga...

ayun. sige. i'll tinker around with this otherwise perfect phone. ay teka. yung PC pala yung bulok. help me, someone!!!

waLa akOng pasOk. gLoAt.

haiii, atenista. nyork, nyork. there's acp goin on sa skul -- alternative class program ang lelang mo -- and syempre, wala ako dun. besides sa wala akong pera -- haha, nuthing new -- hindi sakin binigay ng tangengot na reg peepz ang aking password. che.

eniwei, punta ko sa paranaque later. mamaya na, tinatamad pa ko eh... haha.

my brother joshua broke his arm. he was playing basketball tas collided with a 4th yr student and landed on a steel pipe. ok, gets ko ang 4th yr student and the basketball thingy but san galing yung steel pipe?! oh, come on!!! he broke his left arm in half. buti na lang left at wala siyang excuse para ende pumasok at magsulat. his arm's gonna be in a cast for a month. wowza, merry christmas, kuya!

ende na siya makakapag-volleyball at bsb, eh yun na nga lang ang escape nya from the house. at least hindi siya maghuhugas ng pinggan pero i have a feeling that sumthing's up my father's sleeve.

i love my brother. it makes me sad, those looks he sends my dad. hai. tama na. no more emos.

woookie.

was gonna do my sisterly duty and head over to cavite after going to my lola's at pque but my mom said na no need naman. besides, joshua's gonna go camping today.

haneeeeeeeeeep!


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nasaan si kaliwete sucked. like a vacuum cleaner. i have to write a review about it for fil. well, prof baldy, it sucked.

haha.

lAst miNute bLogGin

haha, parang end of the world ang dating... hehe. eniwez, still have band-aids and they;re much worse... harhar. wawa naman... next door, nasaan si kaliwete shootspeh. gon watch it wz blokmates... tas i need to go na. NOW. haha, toodlelicious... mwah.

dami kong ikukwento pero ala akong netload, bwahaha.

bAnd-AiD fReAk

hehe, that's me... :P ang hirap magtype kasi the middle finger of my ryt hand is in a band-aid, hehe... nagbibihis kasi ako kaninamg am tas sumabit yung finger ko dun sa isang star sa pants ko, hehe... yan, injury. sakit, grabe. tinitigan ko ng matagal, ang daming dugo, hehe...

haaaai.

twenty minutes til fil quiz. im at rsf, passing the tym, checking my mail cuz sabi ni verne i was emailed by heights. hah. they didn't pa. puchaaa naman oh. i signed up for post-delibs eh ende naman ako, er, invited. haha. basta, i signed up. daz it. no feyn, no geyn, babeeh.

arrrrgh. ang hirap ng may band-aid... meron pang 1: nasa may thumb ko. after my arnis later, ima have more bandaids!!! wahooo!!!

ai, sadista ang potcha...

ima go now. babush!!! gulak to me sa fil quiz!!!