nOw, bAcK to mY noRmAl liFe

okay, back to my normal life where i do not have to pose and smile for the camera, primp and preen in front of mirrors, wear clothes i won't have the guts to wear in real life, act like a fool in front of a videocam...

::: tAkeN wHen i gOt hoMe :::

just came from the photo shoot i told you about... it was fun but there were so many pretty boys and pretty girls. but i really hope i can get a job, you know... a job would be very, very, very nice... twenty thousand and above... but im kinda disheartened... i mean, comparatively, i don't look that nice in the photos... (not photogenic...) and then i felt foolish during the vtrs... tapos... there are really lots of pretty girls!

::: aNotHer pA-cuTe piC :::

well, tomorrow i have an exam in english, first thing in the morning... i have to submit a paper which i did this friday but i think what i did was wrong... there's an exam in es lab... ach, scared... and the thought of facing "the ateneo" again... hai... am shooo shcared...but, know what??? i feel confident... i mean, just to be spotted walking along sec, just to be invited to this photo shoot, just to sign that contract and damn it, just the feel of having a job for the more special people--it really boosts my effing self-esteem... sure, i might have felt weird about it, sure i kinda feel like i'll be disappointed but still--!!! it feels good. i feel good about myself... even a tiny bit... no, damn it, i feel great!!!

lord, thank you so much for these opportunities... thank you for the taste of it, the feel of it... it feels great and i feel so blessed yet again... i know that lately, i haven't been doing things that might make me actually deserve the blessings you've given and are giving me... thank you, lord... thank you... and i know that i might be asking too much but... well, i hope i get a job... i pray i get a job.... lord, please let me get a job!!!

hai... i want to make money man... what am i gonna do with it??? first, buy a laptop... then, im gonna give my parents some and probably save some for me... aha--im gonna buy jeans!!!! hehehe!!!! and im gonna pig out at cello's donuts and yellowcab!!! ooh, and im gonna buy guy lian chocs---

don't count your chickens before they hatch...

i am so scared of that saying... jeesh... it's just sooo... scary, man.

but i hope i get a job... job, job, job...

jeesh, im fifteen, man.