caLL tHe qUitLiNe

it's not the same in my mind. just a muddle of alternative, metal rock, screamo rock, girl screamo and all that wicked sturfe. god, i want to be converted. this is the music ive been waiting for, haha. god, that was bonkers.

im glad ive been with camille. ive been trying to put it off 'cuz i was afraid that it might be awkward. i mean, honestly, she was almost everything i wanted to be. in her words, "she [was] living my dream!!! i hate her!!!" hehe. but i don't really hate her. i just thought that... well, she was cool. and she was not me. we were too different. she'd had her own near-perfect life in sydney and im... well.

but you know what? although she'd spent four years away, she didn't change. she (for lack of a better world) *evolved* at the same rate that we did. the essence of her didn't change. her tastes did but that's normal. she has her hobbies, this profession. an attitude about it. but that's the same as us. well, most of us. it's just parallel to my writing. first year ago, it was something that fascinated me. now, it's *becoming* me.

hai.

this thursday -- yes, i know it's holy week -- im gonna listen to the used, my chemical romance, fall out boy, all-american rejects, saosin, ima robot, dashboard confessional, paramore, no notion, call the quitback, ulysees (last three are camille's bands)... wah. and more.

i love it.

god, thank you for camille. hehe.