Wednesday, May 31, 2006

suMmEr loViNg aNd aLl tHat cRap


i (think that i) am a writer so that gives me immense liberty to hate math. really.

for one thing, if i didn't take these blasted summer classes, then i would've been at home. that means, i wouldn't have been on the internet that fateful day. that means, we'd still be PhP____ more stable and i won't have this thing to think about every freaking night.

next time, darling, please think, will you? it'll do everyone around you (including you) a lot of good. a whole lot of it.

but one of the things that's stopping me from throwing myself in front of the next speeding six-wheeler is the promise of something better. i mean, i've been through hell; shouldn't there be a golden goose waiting for me on the way back?

well. mixing metaphors, done.

hiGh sieRra


the aftermath. i survived. although medyo binola ko yung ibang numbers -- lalo na yung pesteng standard deviation na yan -- im still happeh. yah.

shit. that was my last math-related academic thingie. oh, oh, oh, oh. i'm free.

this calls for a special celebration. im gonna get jambalaya with ice-cold c2.

last na yun! haha, im dizzy with the realizatio... :)

oUt of sOrTs


my math finals is in an hour. and im sooo not ready for this. im scared for later. im scared now. parang feeling ko lahat ng pinag-aralan ko, maghahalo-halo at magsasama-sama pero hindi ko naman alam kung papano. sheeeeeht. puteeehk. kinakabahan na talaga ako! wah!

im getting hives. promise. there are welts around my neck. im freaking allergic to math!!!

ayyy.

Tuesday, May 30, 2006

tHis iS tHe lAst soNg


all-american rejects keeps playing over and over and over and over again in my wee head. im not particularly pissed. i just think that people around me are finding it odd that i keep singing the same songs, as if on loop. oh, well. that's what you get for sleeping at 4 AM with your laptop attached to you.

you can't blame me. i have just spent the entire night deluding myself in the highly amusing worlds of romance novels. grah. grah. grah. all this while eating potato chips and jelly beans.

whatever is happening to me, all i know is i need more of this fix. it's making me forget that i have a humongous finals exam tomorrow on math.

nababanas ako. i wish i had all the money in the world to buy all the books i want. sob. i want more books. i want more books. i want more books. i want!

Monday, May 29, 2006

i hEaRt huGh


i forgot the bleeping square root sa freaking standard deviation. eshtoopehhd. sabi na nga ba, mali eh. rawr, rawr, rawrrr.

but that's math. meaning, it's an irrelevant part of my life.

on to far more important things: xmen 3, the last stand. oh, by the way, i am a gigantic spoiler. you will hate me.

i just wish that wolverine's pants were the first to come off when he walked towards a skin-peeling phoenix. damn it--why are they always the last to go?!

my mom won't agree with me but angel looks like a grown-up draco malfoy sans the greasiness. pramis.

tas when cyclops died, wala lang. haha, pathetic. he was in the movie for, say, 3 minutes. hahaha. and he was supposed to be the leader. sus. see what happens to good boys?

and it was fucking terrific when the secretary -- hank mccoy aka beast -- fought alongside the other xmen. i mean, he freaking roared. rawr.

and i heart ian mckellen. oops, sorry, i meant sir ian mckellen.

<<-->>

my mom and i also watched po-po (poseidon) and it's cool. of course, i was thinking that if that were to happen to me, i'd just curl up in one corner and wait to die.

yes, yes, yes.

besides, i can't swim.

<<-->>

i want to sink into a great big depression but that takes far too much effort. damn it. fuckshit and stars and garters.

Sunday, May 28, 2006

miGhty-mOrpHin


i got this uber-hilarious post from: http://fuzzeh-pie.livejournal.com...

for anyone who grew up in the nineties--our generation!--these (for lack of a better word) rock! power rangers foreverrrr!!! haha!

1. Spandex makes excellent armour in battle, seeing as it never tears, even if it is attacked head-on with a sword.

2. Policemen, firemen, FBI agents, and other law enforcement officers cannot do their jobs correctly, so instead they have teenagers in neon jumpsuits do it for them.

3. No one has time to worry about burglars or terrorist threats because they are all to preoccupied running away from the giant, mutated monsters that are currently chasing them.

4. All teenagers have perfect teeth, maintain an A average, and know 206 different types of martial arts.

5. If you are fighting a mutant monster and are hit with any type of weapon with a blade, you will not bleed or receive a physical injury. Instead, sparks will shoot from your body as you fall to the ground in slow motion.

6. If you get a new teacher this year who is young, hot, has constant staring matches with your new, young, hot principal, and catches that rubber band you just shot at him without looking up from his desk, take it as an early warning and move to Europe.

7. Heroes come in many colours, including white, black, pink, yellow, green, blue, crimson, navy, titanium, and of course the all-powerful red.

8. You may not be old enough to drive, but you're never too young to pilot a 50 story robot.

9. Everyone knows how to diffuse a bomb.

10. Don't worry about the 5-year-old kid that was just crushed beneath the ceiling--no one ever dies from their injuries. They'll just walk funny for a few days afterwards.

11. When going into battle, always have several cheesy catch phrases ready to be yelled at your opponent at anytime--this goes for both the good and bad guys.

12. The standard equipment for all law enforcement personnel is as follows: a sword, some sort of laser-firing weapon (usually in the format of a gun), a 3-inch thick helmet that completely
surrounds the head and weighs approximately 7 pounds, a nerd who does nothing else in life but sit around and come up with new weapon upgrades, and a giant robotic animal of some kind.

13. If you play a musical instrument in battle, do not expect it to sound like the actual instrument that you are playing (Example: a flute will sound like a trumpet, and so on and so forth)

14. When you defeat your opponent, they do not just die; they spontaneously combust in a fiery explosion the size of Rhode Island.

15. If you live in a small town on the coast of California that no one has ever heard about (yet has an excellent tourist industry), expect it to be attacked by an evil wacko and his army of mutant freaks bent on world domination before you graduate high school.

16. If you have a sibling about your age (biological, half, step, twin, etc.), expect the evil wacko to brainwash them, turn them evil (especially if you have a twin), and pit them against you eventually.

17. If you do not have a sibling expect to be surprised very soon

18. Rome wasn't built in a day, but small metropolitan cities rebuild themselves overnight.

19. Whenever you arrive to a battle, make sure to procrastinate until the last second, yell at the top of your lungs, and break every law of physics.

and finally...

20. If the evil mastermind is so freakin strong and powerful, WHY DOESN'T HE DESTROY YOU HIMSELF INSTEAD OF WASTING TIME WITH WEAK LACKEYS?!? C'mon now, really

yey!!! :)

Friday, May 26, 2006

gO oN aNd foOL mE


it's a draaag.

i am trying to learn some new stuff and write off this simmering story inside me and i just wanna hole up inside some far-off cave. no school, no responsibilities, no xmen.

but alas, hugh jackman beckons and i am off to see my mommy.

toodles, children.

Thursday, May 25, 2006

it'S liKe yOu'Re a dRug


taylor hicks won american idol! yey, :)

i think i inhaled an ant but that's neither here nor there.

<<-->>

i did some icons that are apositivabalutely whacked. wala lang. i was sooo freaking bored kahapon eh.

this is gonna be a bitch to load, if you're bandwidth-challenged.

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stock photography, random girls, some cute guys, bandpeople, csi and various whatnot:


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hanep. iba talaga pag borrred. be nice, kids.
<<-->>

im gonna watch xmen with my mom. there's no companion more perfect when you want to drool over hugh jackman.

does someone have albums ng fall-out boy? yung "under the cork tree." pahiram naman o. tapos, clean version ng "all i've got" and "im a fake" and "take it away" and "i caught fire" and "light with a sharpened edge" and "lunacy fringe" by the used. haha, gasgas kasi ung cd eh... :)

weeeeee. im happy and utterly hormonal.

<<-->>

sheeeht, i just remembered na i have to do something pa. ay, rawr. sige, fine. gagawin na. teka lang...

toodles, world...

Wednesday, May 24, 2006

eArLy suNseTs ovEr moNroEvilLe


it's raining superrr hard sa labas. buti na lang may payong ako. hai. wala lang, haha.

had my exam sa probability. got one correct, methinks. and that test paper would've been completely blank if i hadn't forced myself to study at 11:30 last night.

im in this impossible zone right now. it's like i have a writing fever -- ick, how cliche-y that is -- and i just have to write about this thing. my muse will just start throwing me ideas at the weirdest of times, along with profanities, mind you, and, surprisingly, i catch these ideas. i don't often do that.

now, i feel that my summer class is getting in the way of my writing! wah!!! :)

<<-->>

interesting tidbits, from wikipedia:

"1514: Gyorgy Dozsa, leader of the Peasants' Revolt in the Kingdom of Hungary, was roasted alive on a white hot iron chair. His captured companions were forced to eat his flesh."

"1974: Christing Chubbuck, an American television news reporter committed suicide during a live broadcast on July 15th. At 9:38 AM, 8 minutes into her talk show, on WXLT-TV Sarasota, Florida, she drew out a revolver and shot herself in the head."

"2001: Bernd-Jurgen Brandes was stabbed repeatedly in the neck and then eaten by Armin Meiwes. Before the killing, both men dined on Brandes' severed penis. Brandes had answered an internet advertisement by Meiwes looking for someone for this purpose. Brandes explicitly stated in his will that he wished to be killed and eaten."

interesting.

Monday, May 22, 2006

i feEl liKe a soNg


doing that 30-song-and-get-one-line thing. but since i have no comments page and since i can count on one hand the people who actually read this site seriously, i... hai. i just lost my train of thought.

crap.

whatever. here goes. ignore if you think it's not relevant. haaaa.

<<-->>

(1) makeout kids - motion city soundtrack
armed with a plethora of insecurities,
we keep each other amused

(2) try - nelly furtado
if you were the seeds, the more i'd sow

(3) ocean avenue - yellowcard
let your waves crash down on me
and take me away

(4) must get out - maroon 5
im not giving up
im making your love

(5) blue and yellow - the used
and it starts just where the lights exist
it's a feeling that you cannot miss

(6) pressure - paramore
some things i'll never know
and i had to let them go

(7) collide - howie day
even the best fall down sometimes
even the stars refuse to shine

(8) helena - my chemical romance
came a time when every star fall brought you to tears again

(9) secret - maroon 5
i know i don't know you, but i want you so bad

(10) rock star - nickelback
im gonna dress my ass with the latest fashion
get a front door key to the playboy mansion

(11) home - michael buble
may be surrounded by a million people
i still feel all alone

(12) my heart - paramore
this heart, it beats, beats for only you

(13) as lovers go - dashboard confessional
i'll be true, i'll be useful
i'll be cavalier, i'll be yours, my dear

(14) ghost of a good thing - dashboard confessional
but i believe in you so much, i could die for the words that you say
but i believe in you so much, i could die from the words that you say

(15) boston - augustana
i think i need a sunrise
im tired of the sunset

(16) somebody told me - the killers
heaven ain't close in a place like this
bring it back down, bring it back down tonight

(17) volvo driving soccer mom - everclear
where do all the porn stars go
when the lights go down?

(18) swing, swing - all-american rejects
the notes are old, they bend, they fold
and so do i to a new love

(19) hide and seek - imogen heap
the dust has only just began to fall
crop circles in the carpet

(20) view from heaven - yellowcard
late night drives, all alone in my car
i can't help but start singing lines from all our favorite songs

(21) hips don't lie - shakira feat. wyclef jean
oh baby when you talk like that, you make a woman go mad

(22) everything is alright - motion city soundtrack
im sick of the things that i do when im nervous
like cleaning the oven or checking my tires

(23) far away - nickelback
on my knees, i'll ask
last chance for one last dance

(24) all these things that i've done - the killers
i got soul but im not a soldier
i got soul but im not a soldier

(25) just friends - gavin degraw
you were just friends, at least that's what you said
now i know better, from his fingers in your hair

(26) L.O.V.E. - ashley simpson
love is a part of me, love is the heart of me

(27) empty apartment - yellowcard
someday, if ever you love me, you'd say, it's okay

(28) the book of love - peter gabriel
it's full of charts and facts and figures
and instructions for dancing

(29) franklin - paramore
'cause you remind me of a time
when we were so in love
do you remember that?

(30) all that i've got - the used
i'll be just fine pretending im not
im far from lonely and it's all that i've got

<<-->>

i am in the mood for halo-halo.

Friday, May 19, 2006

wHeRe dO alL thE pOrn sTArs go?


hi. haha. i am soooo pathetically bored and i assume that i am boring you too, dear Constant Reader, with my recollection of how boring my days are. yip-de-doo.

i was sooo bored yesterday na i freaking cleaned out my closet! yes, ladies and gentlemen--my closet is now organized. it smells like air wick morning dew.

i was sooo bored that i stayed up until 2 am to listen to my roommate recount what a bloody bastard her boyfriend is.

i was sooo bored, i read anne rice seriously.

i was so freeeeeking bored na i organized my files, wrote everything down in a notebook, all the lines that popped into my head, all the scene excerpts, all the million-dollar ideas that never took fruit 'cause i didn't write.

hai.

Wednesday, May 17, 2006

aShLey sMiLes


i am so in love with that widdle baby. sooo in love.

is it possible to get drunk on two itty-bitty sawsawan-ng-suka "glasses" of wine? mmm. sarap nung mud shake or whatever u call that. gawd, found an alcoholic drink that i lurve... but, given my experience with those two not-so-shots, i think i don't hold my liqour well. or, worse (?), i drop dead sleeping.

mommy lily arrived na yesterday and it's chaos sa house...

<<-->>

im so scared to touch ashley cuz she's so small. so tiny, yet so perfectly formed. she's wonderful. on one hand, i want her to grow a little so i can play with her without fearing for the state of my heart. on the other, i want her to stay like she is, because nothing is as beautiful.

they're talking about the possibility of making me her godmother. oh, well. no money and gifts from me until, say, in ten years. :)

Monday, May 15, 2006

i'LL bE jUst fiNe


don't your just love the used?

"i'll be just fine, pretending im not. im far from lonely and it's all that ive got."

<<-->>

spent a amnesia-inducing day back home in cavite, with my parents (joshua and john are in calatagan, doing their altar boy stints). we listened to the wicked wind outside, ordered chili from wendy's and slept through the whole running of m:i:3. damn, it's so good to be back home.

i love my mom. she's so pragmatic, it's creepy. it's also kind of calming.

Friday, May 12, 2006

fuCk tHis


ang tanga tanga tanga tanga tanga tanga tanga ko.

Wednesday, May 10, 2006

foOl mE tWiCe


i have no idea why ive become so fucking naive, so fucking trusting. what's wrong with me? why do i always believe that there's good in people when in truth, in this day and age, there's nary a shred of that so-called goodness?

i guess it serves me right. sasha, get a grip. open your eyes. people have killed each other for much, much less. wars are being waged right now. this, this... monstrosity that you've been going through just serves to further cement the reality that you can't trust people.

such sad, sad souls we all are.

Monday, May 08, 2006

eXaNgUiNate mE


i feel like someone's clamped onto my neck overnight and sucked out all my blood. feeling woozy and sad. hai, so sad. so anxious, like ima have shit thrown at me at any moment.

you know that good luck thing i talked about in my last entry? well. well. damn it.

if all goes wrong, i just myt kill myself. but since im a fantastic coward, i'll just go on living a blah life. this time, it's going to be all my fault.

if anyone out there still believes in God, could you say a prayer? like, "please help sasha with whatever screwed-ness she's up to."

im smelling those turds now... whizzing through the air like biohazard projectiles. waaaah.

Friday, May 05, 2006

it miGht jiNx iT


wow. what a life.

iamsoooafraidtojinxthis.

basta. life is good, so far. i think i owe thaaat much to God and good luck so i'll acknowledge my, er, good fortunes here in mah vlog. i can't tell you, Constant Reader (a la Stephen King...:p), since i am a superstitious hag and im scared of jinxing my unbelievably good luck, so far, i just can't say it. grabe. ima get a nosebleed at the enormity of everythaaang.

looordpleeeeeeese.

<<-->>

im going back home after math class... a weekend at the dorm will turn my brain into soup. lugaw. i'll talk to the wall na lang sa house, since joshua and johna are gone, mom's in the office and dad is off gallivanting. okie. fine. basta may cable at malamig na tubig, masaya na ko. :)

<<-->>

i am vaguely aware that as i write this, ako lang yung babasa since my usual readers have (a) been shot to hell, (b) gone to hell since they're having a proper vacation, (c) suddenly developed a loathing to popular culture, the net in particular. oh, well.

i vote for (b).

toodles, world. off to math class and tautologies with weird names that hint at eroticism: modus ponens and modus tollens. yey.

Wednesday, May 03, 2006

viBes


mom gave me a visit, to deliver my plates and my froggie mug... :) ate at ken afford... and, as usual, the night couldn't be complete without one of our crazy conversations:

we just came from ken afford, which was next door to my dorm. mom and i were walking the ten spaces to dormitoryana's lobby.

then, she puts a hand to her bag.

mommy: my phone. is it with you? someone's calling me, i think.

as she's rummaging in her bag, i take her phone from my pocket.

me: nasa akin, ma.

mommy: oh. (holds out her hairbrush.) akala ko ito yung cell ko.

me: (amused) nag-ring?

mommy: hindi, ano ba. nag-vibrate.

waaaaaaaah.

<<-->>

i highly recommend the calamares (kelly pickler!:)) and the black gulaman sa ken afford. yey. hehe... :)

Tuesday, May 02, 2006

lEtTeR kilLs


here's my letter to my mom, who emailed me on how i was doing... aw, shuweeet... :)

yeeeeey, communication!!! :)

hello, mother... my first night was cool. i couldn't sleep, kahit na i was sooo tired. [secret...] i think the not sleeping bit's that phenomenon called "nambabahay." something about having your internal thingumajig getting used to the new surroundings. ewan.

but i taped batista on my closet walls so i feel right at home.

my roommate's very nice and very friendly. (that sounds like a commercial) the quintessential college girl, hehe. i like her. :) we're getting along reaaaal nice. she slept over kasi nag-away sila ng boyfriend niya, haha. :)

she's hiding this cute little iron that im free to use. re the laundry, there's always the laundry people. that's it.

don't want to tutor anymore eh. really, i don't think im much help. his needs are a matter of real consequence cuz he's working and stuff and he needs english, needs a professional to teach him english. and im only channeling my high school days na kailangang magturo sa mga elementary habang nagmi-meeting yung mga teachers. so, yeah. will have to resign.

i'll take another tutoring thing but not in this area of, er, study.

in some freudian level, it maaay be a ploy. haha. pero it's not pressing naman. you can get me a phone come july or august or september since im okay living without one anyhoo. (what--am--i--saying?!)

plate, spoon and fork, bowl, platito, and my frog mug. don't forget the frog mug. tapos, yung lalagyan ko ng cereal... may frog canister sa loob nun, kung madadala mo, dalhin mo na rin for storage... :) speaking of cereal, bumili ako ng milk kahapon... tapos, naisip ko, i have no storage for the milk. other than drinking the milk in one sitting (yuck) and eating the cereal without milk (cry) i don't think i can eat it. so, yes, mother, in the end, you win. take the cereal and don't dance the victory jig in front of me.

wala akong medyas!!! i bought this garish orange pair for ten pesos and i shall use it for the week. haaaa.

urm, yung lalagyan ng bathing things... :) hehe... :)

madadala mo yung toaster? hehe, kidding.

oh, the tv has two channels. mtv and channel 2. yeeeey. i shall rely on the internet and video streaming to catch up sa csi and bones and everything else... detective conan. ghost fighter. pikachuuu!!! waaah.

ctc ni father.

math namin ngayon, logic. as in:

mommy is slow.
all turtles are slow.
therefore, mommy is a turtle.

labs,
shaaaa

ps: kahapon, i got an alarm clock. i set it for 8. kanina, nagising ako ng mga 8:30. naisip ko, the alarm rang tas hindi ako nagisiiing? naistorbo ko yata yung roommate ko... haha. nung kinuha ko, hindi ko pala in-on yung alarm. chooopeeehd. haha.



ang kuhleeeeet. :) wala lang.

im doing dandy, ladies and gentss.... :)

Monday, May 01, 2006

kami-what?


i am now an official dormitoryana resident. and i kinda lurve it, haha. it's spacious, mind-your-own-business and most of all, there's no freaking curfew. yeyness!!! :)

my roommate's name is glacie. and she's funny and honest and incredibly lovestruck. she's that type of person who hangs on to love no matter what because it's in her nature to do so. never mind if she herself admits that her boyfriend is a neanderthal of the lowest level.

my other roommate, arah, is still in vacation. and mehopes she is as nice as glacie. if not, well... i've gotten worse. :)

life is goodie goodie, so far.

coolness.