pAkdAp

how deep--depth is the gauge of emotions, right?--can one's sadness, no, loneliness be to resort to... well, something you don't resort to until you're totally fucked up? well, lookie there. i guess that answers my widdle question. hai.

oh, shit. my tummy hurts. growl.

i'm selfish. hell, yeah. incredibly so. it's been sorely tested today. now the people around me know how truly selfish i can be. hmm. sorry. what you see's what you get. (im being good. i scrapped out a few choice adjectives.)

well, fuck it.

didn't i mention that i hate kids? well, toodles. im gonna go make sum. haha.

wEeK

iVe beEn misSing iN aCtiOn bUt mEtHinKs tHat'S jUst dAndy cUz nO oNe's viSitEd mE naMan... okay lang. fine. whatever. whatever honks your tractor. hmmm. spent the last week with my family in cavite. what did i do? sleep, watch wrestling, play monopoly, have my best friend climb tomy window just to wake me up, step over the laundry piled on the floor and wrestle with the cat.

im so happy. haha. so grrrreat to be back home.

and now i am back in paranaque, with my lola. and i realize that we don't really get along, deeeeep down. i mean, im having so much fun with my family, despite the environment... but all is good anyways. wala ang rodriguez family sa house so yahooooooo!!!

oki, that is soooo bad.

hmmm... what else?

oh, btw, hindi tuloy ung outing sana namin. all is good. none of my friends are going anyway soo... hai. the wrath of paula mayores fell upon those who were there.

hindi ako nakapunta kanila jozelle... zelle, i miss you soooo much. cry, cry, cry... i was gonna go there but the day when i planned to go there... well, hai... wala eh. i woke up at six. yes, six. as in six p.m. gabi na uli nun. saya no???

so, what have i been tinkering with that i don't get some sleep at night eh wala namang internet?

collide. it's a story i've been working on for ages. hmmm... ive seen the light and it feels good, baby... hehe. thanks to my window-climbing best bud, brian...

my heAd is spinNing

wild, uncontrollable thing. can't get enough of it, can you???

stop eating my soft-batch cookies. may u get diarrhea.

growl.

hmm.. my face is breaking out. haha. ah, adolescence... harhar.

tHis mUst bE bAd foR me

oh lord, this is morifying.

i am crazy as poo.

baffLed

i don't wanna say that something is wrong with me cuz that would be too emo. ive had enough of that shit. for now. my head hurts and so does the rest of my body... hello to niKay here... :p im tired. very tired. but still awake. still awake, babeeh, and up to no good.

if only it were easier... am i talking in riddles? good. i better be or else im screwed.

it's hot. damn it, it's hot. haha. how profound of me. how observant. of course im sweating. im wearing jogging pants and a tshirt.

im off to meet someone. yes, im aware that it's past 2 am.

wake up, prince charming.

nO roOm fOr titLes

i can't get him out of my mind. im going crazy. every song makes me daydream about him. he doesn't even know i exist. shit, that's sad. i jump at the sound of my phone beeping, wishing like crazy that it's him. now that's pathetic. get over it. find someone else and screw them... find someone else who'll screw your head but make sure that when you call their name. they come. they. haha. gangbang, babeeh.

shit, im screwed.

hey, prince charming. wake up.

bOnsOir, worLd

grr. stop asking me about the kids. i hate kids. i hate them. especially that kid in the pancit canton commercial. i even hate tolits. they're so friggin' perky and happy. grr. grr. litle devils. crap. crap. snort. growl. hehe. and i hate the kids on that telenovela about street children. everyone. hargh. the only kid ive like is china, who i saw, once, during ten-ten's party. cute little angel. and then there's ten-ten, whose perkiness is bearable because i love her. and then, lastly, there's that cute little boy in that milk commercial who's running to his mother holding a stack of milk cartons.

not a long list, no?

that's excluding babies... saw one cute baby sa back cover ng isang reader's digest issue. love her. or was it a him?

but when i have my own kids, i'll love them. lurve, baby. lurve. a little boy and a little girl...

teka, why am i talking about kids?! hehe. ala lang.

argh. they lecture me about my internet habits. what else is there to do?!

watching pbb. they kid there is soo fucking creepy. cute daw siya? yuck. if you like gnomes. grah.

<<-->>

"Hello Sasha, I'm Ray from LitSoc. I'm the head of Formations Department. We basically handle the discussion sessions for selected texts. We design and facilitate the modules. Based on your app form, you seem to have the necessary skills/interests to become a member of our dept. Would you be interested in joining? (insert smiley face here.)"

so. what was that about? well, got that text. haha. sure im interested... pero, whoa. backtrack, babeeh. i haven't attended a single meeting. my 100 was practically a donation. so i said so... after a looong speech that demonstrated how skilled i was in the language and what a kiss-up i was, i said, "interested but no longer qualified."

and then he replied, "Don't worry, it'll be OK. We all learn as we go along. We'll see what we'll see." first of all, what the fuck do you mean by not worrying? who said i was worrying in the first place? tas what about that learning part? graaaaah. and then... that seeing blah... agh.

i. do. not. want. to. have. anything. to. do. with. you.

pAin.

pAin. wiNce. pAin. oH, shiTeroO, pAin!!!

pero bago un, lemme tell u sumthing: had a weird dream... dreamt i went to the tagaytay trip my hs classmates had planned... it was sort of a reunion. everyone there hated me. snort. everyone there hates me. always have. come on. not much of a dream, dummy.

shit, emo.

so, am i going or not?

im not.

...

btw, did i tell you na by the end of the dream, my prince charming made his entrance (squealing sports car tires) and started telling everyone how bad they were? hehe. not much. sino ang prince tsarming ko? tikreto ko na yun! :p

<<-->>

thIS is tHe pAin pArt:::

hormones. i mentioned before that it gives profundity to your thinking. hrmmm. fine. it's that time of the month for me. (am i grossing ze boys out?) therefore, my organs hurt like hell and my vagina is about to fall off -- credits, again, to niKay. and when i woke up yesterday, my tummy contracted (permanently, methinks) and so now i feel hungry. always. my lola calls it indigestion. keEbLer's sOft bAtcH chOcoLate ChiP coOkiEs--the culprit. i ate the whole pack... and im eating more. hurts. hurts. kulit ko no? ...and then i have a migraine. payment for staying up until 3, since sem break began. oh, and let's not forget the fact that im rarely seen without my laptop nowadays. (electric bill's gonna make my lola scream her guts out.) e-books, the net... my neglected writing... my head hurts and im gonna pop some pills...

i feel like ive had gastric bypass surgery. (not that i knooow what it reallly feels like... XD)... but methinks im on the spot: u're hungry, ure stomach is hollow... and then you eat. after a couple pf bites, you can't eat anymore cuz ur tummy sez ur full... but ur nooooot...

wala lang.

<<-->>

sabi ko--hehe, bobo!--kabog. den naisip ko, diba pag high ka nun? kabog? o wasted? haha. kabag, gaga!!!

aLa laNg

waLa lAng. boRed...

hehe... thish ish my wallpaper... methinks they're in the tent before the dragon thingy...

wookie... is it obvious im an hp freakkk?
proud to be, demmeeeet.

oUr cOuntRy iS iN shAmbLes

oUr couNtry iS fAlLiNg apArt. iT iNfuRiaTes mE. it sAdDenS me.

we're in a fucking mess. the news seldom mentions anything good happening. a former vice president got blasted with water by civilians who didn't know any better. because he was in a fucking prayer rally. because she irked the president.

gma has guts. you have to admire that. hell, you can't help it. but there's no denying the fact that our country's sinking deeper and deeper into... into... shit.

haarrrrgh.

<<-->>

"Pinoy Big Brother is the concoction of a head infestedby (sic) brain-eating flies. :)" -- apRiL... haha. to each his own. i agree, actually. i can also say that it's hooked me. hmmm... that must say something about my own brain... like i said, it satisfies the voyeur in me. and there's plenty of that.

<<-->>

ebooks, ebooks, ebooks. im a writer, babeeh, and right now, my laptop is crammed with pirated ebooks. it's crazy... haha.

<<-->>

hormones. read: i have. eww. haha.

<<-->>

no more politics. let's talk about my wallpaper. harry potter and an uber-beautiful hermione. ala lang... and then my screensaver's a doggie licking my screen...

alis na ko. vavush.

wHaAaAtup?!

"a census taker once tried to test me. i ate his liver with some fava beans and a nice Chianti." --Anthony Hopkins as the cannibalistic, scary and, hehe, hot Hannibal Lecter in The Silence of the Lambs

haha. wala akong magawa... grabeeh, wala. hehe. i can't get enuf of mah blog... haha.

photoblogger weird. it won't workkk... harhar...

my lola's watching kampanerang kuba. haha. ryt now, three nuns are, um, singing. yep, singing. whatevarrr... the thing i like best about them's the boots underneath the yellow habits. it's cute...

permanently offline from gabie. howch.

tige. babush. kakain lang ako. dami pang food... taba ko na pag sem break... hehe... tige. mmmwaaaahhh.

i aM soO hApPy wiTh hOw it loOks

fOr oNce iN mAh liFe, iM hAppY with mY bLog... hehEe...

ala lang... no titles but i can live with that... siksikan sa sidebar but it's okeee... hehehe. alavet so maccchhh!!!

<<-->>

shoooot. my random number for reg is 208...!!! 208?! by the time i get my turn, the only subject in natsci left would be chemistry. or zoology. or botany. shhheeeehhht. gusto kong mag-physics!!!

tas sa p.e... shoot, what's gona happen to meeeh?!! argh. argh. argh. whatever computer assigned me that blasted number, may it blow up right now!!! rawr.

argh. argh. demmit.

<<-->>

eating rosquillos and davy crockett's choco frosting. haha. tataba ako. sheet.

<<-->>

mommy lily's lecturing me--er, reminding me pala--to contact tita bong once in a while... hehe... sure. sure. she gave me nami and now i can't live with her... sure. sure... hehehe.

mwaaaahhh... babush!!!

bRian kEndriCk iS soOo hOoOt

haha. im watching wrestling, as usual... brian kendrick is sooo hot. sooo hot, babeeeh. haha.

talked to my mom kanina... told me a story about a match i missed. simon dean, that ass, irked some huUuuUuuge guy. haha. silver medalist in the army something or the other... so, my little brother said daw, "pano pa kya yung gold medalist?!" haha. haha.

i miss wwe, sobra. i missed a lot. my dormmates are weirded out kasi when i watch it... they're like, "are you watching? may papanoorin kasi akong telenovela/anime/myx." shaddup. of course im watching. naked men groping each other senseless. who wouldn't want to watch that?!

btw, i don't recommen the cheezy fries cold. i don't recommend the chicken torpedo thingy in any temperature...

<<-->>

waaaaah! batista is coming on next!!! ang gwapo ni batista!!!

iM hAppY wiTh my liFe

ows, dinga?!

hehe... lay-out's oki na... im actually happy with it, save for the glitches that occasionally arise... yung dati, bumababa yung sidebar when you click the september archives. ngayon, nawawala na siya completely!!! haha, at least wala nang eyesore...

weird logic...

matutulog na ko... shit--er, i mean, bovine excrement--ang dami ko nang zits!!! hehe. endi ako magpapakita sa mga friends ko until my face clears up. haha. therefore, hindi na nila ko makikita EVER!!! haha. gago, shaddup...

aysh, im gonna get in trouble again cuz i don't sleep!!! that's the problem when you live with your relatives, especially with your neurotic, loving lola... haha.

argh, someone's walking upstairs. baka si tita. kakagatin ako nun... hehe. worse, isusumbong ako tomorrow. yikes. kung ghost... agh. agh. agh. i hope the fright will send my zits away. hahaha.

babush, worldddd!!! gooznayt!!!

tHeRe's a chOcoLate stAin oN tHe bEd

uh-oh. mommy lily's gonna kill me. tear me to pieces over it. how many times has she told me never to eat while on the bed?! well, i ate. ate, i did. chocolate frosting and otap. it was delicious. it was sinful. lagooot ako...!!! bwahahahahaha... :'p

chino wants to use the computer. frankly, it's getting on my nerves. you can't silence a child with a "are-you-kidding?" look unlike you can with, say, a 13-year-old boy. or girl.

i moved out of xanga. but the link is here. kita-kita na lang tayo, mga peepz... haha. haha. haha.

...arrrhhh.

harrumph. (ive always found that word cute.)

oh, god. the tell-tale stain. it's screaming at me... "sashaaa. youuu stained me. besmirched my cotton surface. permeated with chocolate the fibers of my being!!!" i imagine that it's saying this with a ghost-of-xmas-future voice. wait. did the goxf--follow me--have a voice there? hmmm...

tae. eto na si chino. mababaliw na ko. "ate sasha this, ate sasha that." haha. i imagine myself to be more annoying when i was at that age.

chloe, chino's sister, asked me this: "you are always loving ten-ten but not chino and me." she asked this when i kissed ten-ten. repeatedly. smart girl, that chloe...

<<-->>

verne, musta na?! :'D... the only things i'll miss about xanga are the smilies. hehe.

toodles.

mY tuMmy iS chuRniNg

yup. im hungry... haha. stoned as hell too. went to sleep at 3:30 am... woke up, say, six hours later. not bad, no?

hai. im surfing the net again. mauubusan din ako ng pera at ng load, haha. ano na gagawin ko? wank and read. not necessarily in that order. bwahahaha. delirous. lack of sleep makes me delirious...

do i publish this or not? i will... i'll just remove the sensitive areas... herm...

tita bobyn and ten-ten's here. cute. i love this team. hai...

hAhaAaA, waLaNg suMpOng si nAmi

in fairness, wala akong binura--in fact, nagdagdag pa ko--pero mabilis na si nami. hehe. walang sumpong. o maybe i just needed to make her sanay.

ick, wat is with da conyo way op speking?!

haha.

wanton. such a weird word. wanton, what a weird word. hehe.

shet, naubos ko na yung buko pie. weird... weird... harhar. sobra... matatae ako nito. haha. ngayon pa nga lang, ang sakit na ng tiyan ko. hahaha.

ay, sya. ang kulit.

im downloading the post-it note software. cute kasi... and i downloaded na the doggie screensaver... im donloading limewire kasi ang tagal ko nang merong imesh pero 1 kanta pa lang nadownload ko. hahaha.

ang labo na ng mata ko. i'll be bespectacled by the time the sem break is over. pano ba naman, puro laptop. kng hindi internet, ebooks. kung hindi eooks, stories. aysha. and then my lola's electric bill's going to skyrocket. shooot.

ay, teka... i ust received an email from this site i submitted an essay to. may bayad kasi pag natanggap. sheet, sana tinanggap. hehehe... teka... 25 doollars din yun!!!

(rapidly beating heart. some farting in the background.)

...

ay, di ako natanggap.

(more farting.)

hehe, okie lang... ive gone through miss lin. im stronger when it comes to rejections... hai.

doo i or doo i not change my lay-out. im happy with it naman but i want it to be customized... i want to have this image of a girl on the floor. haha. so, pano gumawa ng lay-out. first things first. pano mag-host ng image?!

agh, hindi pa ko tulog...

i smell peanuts. boiled peanuts... yumm...

i wish i was alexandra mardiveci-eickhof, supermodel, novelist, european celebrity, advocate of perfect jeans. haha. i get what i mean.

may sasabihin pa ba ko? sinusulit ko na ksi baka next time, mabagal na naman tong baby ko... (big smile)

may post-it notes na ko!!! haha. sige, maggagala muna ako...

babuuush!!!

sHe sHamEs tHe tuRtLe

ang bagaaaaal pala ni nami... ai, kelangan pataasin ang speed ni gaga. aiaiai... ive twenty hours nga in my card pero ubos na yun sa opening plang ng pages...

im in paranaque--sana im here na for, hmm... til the end of the sem break, haha. ayoko umuwi. depressing ang pucha.

i want to write everything here na cuz mamaya, wala na... argh. asar. ang bagal mo, punetang laptop ka!!!

hai. vent, darling. vent...

ano pa, ano pa... ay, gosh, thank you pala kay tito ino for the sundo-ing he's done for me. haha, alam ko hassle pero sorry ha? wala eh... wasted si gaga... hai... gladdy squealed when i showed her my labahan. that's what my lola pays you for. to squeal. hehe. sori kung heartless but i don't really care right now. im not in the caring mood. pakshet...

di ko ma-download ung limewire. demmit naman oh... grr. i want some music na. and porn. the latter, easily remedied. ay, pakshet, whatamiseying?! haha, freakout na, freakout... gooo!!!

teka. kukuha lang ako ng ice cream at buko pie sa fridge. wetkalang.

...

o, im back. shet, walang pinagbago ang puta. mas mabilis pa yung sa school na may virus... hmmm... i myt have to delete sum things... like what? yung encarta. haha.

shit, ang bagal talaga. so lulubos-lubusin ko na ito.

grabeeeh... the last few days have been utter hell. yun. yun na ang paglulubos ko ng pagkakataong ito. sorry ha?! im not feeling philosophical today. im feeling fucking pissed.

arrrrghhhh.

gudnyt. mamaya pa ko matutulog. bwahahaha!

wHere dO i sLeEp toNigHt?

agh, grabe the hormones of mine. swear. even madonna's doing weird things to me. hahaha. go to hell, girl. go to hell!!!

bwahahahaha.

im so tired. just passed my research paper and i think it stank. knowing miss lin, im highly likely to get a C.

shoooot.

there's so many things to say but i don't want to say them. next time na lang. sheet.

mY bAg sTrAp iS abOut tO sNap

nami's inside it kasi... wala lang. thought i'd bring her to school so i can test her out... uy--pede na pla to isaksak sa 220...

im killing time sa--where else?--rsf before i meet with isel to photocopy the checklist sa english that i lost... haha, naiwan ko ata sa kama ni mommy lily. tanga.

hindi pala wi-fi ready ung gagong laptop ko. ay, pakerrr. (eww, that is sooo gabie. i hate u, beeeetch!!!)

haha.

anyhoo, i tinkered with her and gez waaat? wi-fi don't work. i think. that's why am here to check it out. crrraaaap... i can go online naman sa dorm--or wait till friday cuz wala na si gabie tas pu2nta na ko uli sa paranaque. saya. but gabie nga is there. puneta siya. fuck her, elephants.

aherm. tas kaninang umaga, after i did my business, kinausap ko ung isa sa mga, er, maids dun sa dorm about the fee ng computer ko. gago ung brujang yon. fuck you all, you selfish bitches!!! pag ako yumaman, bahala kayo!!!

haha, vindictive ang puta.

(deep breaths...)

wAsteeEeEhhhd, grAbe

hApPy biRtHdAy, tEn-tEn!!!

woke up early today, hehehe. as early as i could... buti nga nagising pa ko...

went to makati--woohoo, makateeeeh!!!--shopped and ate... familia. italianni's, hehe. landi, shiyeeeet. saraaap lahat. ay, gosh... tarap, tarap.

panira lang ng araw ko was the fact na 1.) hindi ako pedeng mag-uwi kasi busog na ko and 2.) the knowledge that something was wrong... arrgh.

umuwi muna kami ng paranaque to get my stuff saka hinatid na ko ni tito ino--in a rare show of kindness--sa dorm. wow, ung two hours kong commute naging less than 30 mins. tae.

tas hindi pa ko nakapasok agad kasi lock ung gate. call ko si gab, asar pang bumaba. ba, ikaw naman binababaan ko, diba?! tas nagising na ung isang maid. galit. sheet. gets ko naman eh pero sorry ha?!

hai.

bob left the big brother house--oo, nanonood ako nun!

slept on my math notes, hehe.

gRimAce is mY neW boYfRieNd

haha, kalog.

sarap sa mcdo. lonely nga lang kasi alam kong maraming problema. hai...

di pa ko umuwi cuz sabi ni tito ino tomorrow na lang so i can get to the family dinner. fine... fine...

hai.

tEchNicaL diFficuLtiEs

harhar. ilabmylaptop. but im aware of the fact that if this was one of the units sa ilab, i wudve whacked it na. bwahahaha.

anywesz, di pa rin ako nag-aaral for math and lit. yung research paper ko, hindi pa rin nagagalaw. taya. hahaha. grabe the distraction!!! i consumed 9 hours overnight. pucha. kelangan ko na talaga ng wi-fi.

the imesh and limewire's shit. yung imesh, last night ko pa dnownload but i still havent downloaded any songs. ung limewire, iniyakan ko na but ayaw pa rin mag-install. grr.

pakkkerrrshiyeeeeht. hahaha. tas nabasa to ni tita baba. haha. lagot ako. haha.

ay, siya--di ba pwedeng sem break na?!?!

__

lez jas say na ang saya basahin ng idiot's guide. tapos ung ebooks pa ni geny, ang naughty. tapos may vcd/dvd player ako with earphones. (wicked, naughty laugh.)

ay, sana lang talaga...

ano?

wala.

fiRst bLeEpiNg poSt uSinG nAmi

triumphant! bwahahahaha!!! this is my first post through my laptop, nami... my baby. who's now english. hehehehe.

ang sarap ng feeling grabeeeeeeeeeeeh!!!

im in paranaque... right after english class ended at 8:30--we started at 8, btw--i went to de la costa to submit my fil paper... tas, i hailed a cab papuntang lrt, got a little lost cuz sarado pa yung gateway... but im here. im happy.

ive got the complete idiot's guide to great sex so what more can i ask for?! nyahahaha. oi, virgin pa ko, gago!!!

shiyet, ang dami kong magagawang kalokohan sa laptop na 'to... haha, i'll put on parent protection para masaya... haha...

teka lang. im giddy... haha. my laptop's my first priority. that means my research paper and my math notes have little chance of being seen by my eyes... tata!

hAi. iT's dOne.

swear. i amm so proud of myself. done with my fil paper. B to B+ hahaha. grabe. 10:45 pa ko dito and all ive eaten for the whole day is two pieces of creams. hanep.

(cry.)

wala... wala na kong energy na mag-blog. hai, hikbi...

im soooo tired. pagdating ko sa dorm, oorder ako ng happy homes at lalamon ako!!! bwahahahahaha!!! :'p

my mind's set. im going to paranaque tomorrow!!! hehehehe!!! nami!!! mmmwaaaahhhh... sana english na siya... rawr.

cHeckList cLeaRiNg uP. oh, jOy.

the only thing left in my checklist are my finals, the fil paper and the research paper. kaya, pucha. :'p i'll do my research over the weekend tas i'll do my fil thingy now [er, later.]

tapos na ko sa lit orals... haha. after panicking so much the last several days, i did it in under two minutes. saya. i made a mess, i know... there's room for growth. (big grin.)

sasiyaaaaah.

ala lang.

recommended read: mAgAndA pA aNg dAigdIg ... i am not kidding. i cried sa ending. naturally. ako to eh.

tige na. babush.

lAugH tRip!!!

o, find nemo daw. hAhahAhAHaAaAh!!!

im at the comp lab, trying to put some sense into my fil paper. hargh. the guy in front of me looks like warren. hahahaha!!!

pAksHet, mAndAraYa teAchEr kO sA eS!!!

this is a transcript of ym between me and gelaine, a classmate of mine sa es... i ym-ed her kasi yung status message niya is "i love daddy clavee" -- that's what we call our prof-- tapos ung kay gerry is "sobrang love ko na si sir from now on." got suspicious. so, here goes:

sasha: ha? bakit? why you love clavee? wha??
gelaine_chua: haha... eh, don't tell anyone k???? promise first
sasha: okay. fine.
sasha: rawr
sasha: WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAATTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT????
sasha: oi
sasha: haha
sasha: what??? telll meeeee!!!
gelaine_chua: or else i'll kill u
gelaine_chua: haha
gelaine_chua: haha... after u guys left we hung around ryt? then he was teaching ck the answers so we questioned him..
gelaine_chua: pos he let us change our answers
gelaine_chua: haha.. we got perfect scores
gelaine_chua: hahaha
gelaine_chua: u should've stayed
sasha: god damn it. friggin' motherfucker.
sasha: agh, fuckerrrrrrr.
gelaine_chua: yeah... hahaha
gelaine_chua: i told u na
gelaine_chua: hahahaha
gelaine_chua: so happy
gelaine_chua: hahaha
gelaine_chua: yeah
gelaine_chua: hahaha
sasha: haha. i know how to spell fucking cheater and it starts with r and c.
sasha: haha. hikbi ang puta.
gelaine_chua: hahaha.... behh... i know ur so jealous ryt? haha
sasha: [kukulamin ko si sir clavee... pucha yan, dapat exempted na ko sa finals. sheee-eeet.]

i aM soO nOt hApPy. i aM fuCkiNg pisSed. iF iM nOt exEmPteD frOm tHe finAls, fuCk tHIs alL!!!

cAfFeiNe kiCk. muRdeR. mAsSacRe.

got my coffee last night. the packet read 25 cups. toyed with the idea of 25 cups in one sitting. and so, back at home, i drank two mugs of coffee. note that the mug i used was my gigantic snoopy one. ha. i wasn't stoned. au contraire. i was giddiness personified, bursting with caffeine-induced energy. shit, i was a sad sight.

finished the fourteen-item math quiz. and i was happy while i did it. happy. who the hell in his/her right mind would be happy doing a math quiz? it was f*cking hard but i wAs hApPy. shit.

es long test? studied crazy. made lots of noise. laughing over mollisols and oxisols. wha? you ask. [if there is a you since i think im the only one reading this...] well. well.

i rehearsed for the lit orals. ang ingay ko, grabe. baliw ang gaga. pero nasagot ko lahat. saya. i might need to drink coffee before the orals. haha.

and im almost done reading my fil novel. in another time, another place, i would have enjoyed it. well, that place is in a caffeine rush. im in chapter 24 na... i'll finish it today. start doing the paper today and stuff like that. bwAhahA!!!

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im thinking if im going home this friday to get nami. tapos go home monday morning so i can attend ten-ten's birthday. im going to study na for math there and im going to do my final english paper. pero, naisip ko: shit. anong gagawin ko dun ng tatlong araw?
magpakalunod sa aircon. kumain ng kumain. mag-internet. magpakabaliw. have the hell annoyed out of me by my two cousins. whreeeew.
ten-ten's parthay is at 5:15. wow. may night life ang lola mo. sa mcdo.

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last es class today. well, actually it was a long test. but whateverrr. last tym ko makikita yung mga tukmol na yun [i say tukmol in a loving manner, ladies and gents.] hai... well, sana it's the last time cuz ayokong mag-finals. hahahahaha. wala lang. ayokong mag-senti. crap. crafff.

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o... im going to study pa how i-fi works. hahaha.

21 : tuLisAn o bAyAni

that's where i am in a 28-chapter novel.

do not get overwhelmed.

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there's really nothing to say.

baLiw nA gRabe

pissed.

and worried.

i was thinking last night. can i afford a laptop? i mean, i have it na but can i afford it? plus 700 pesos sa dorm... im going to haggle pa nga since november and december's only five weeks. tapos, hindi pa nga sure kung kukunin ko si nami this weekend so i can do my english paper.

wala lang.

pRe-neRvOus bReAkdoWn

i practically flew from fil class after the long test i am sure to flunk. since i studied only two hours before the thing and slept one hour pa, i'll be surprised if i ace it. i am running on tears, people. running on tears. mamaya, i'll be running on coffee. haha. run to rustan's and buy kApe. tHe uLtrA-efFectiVe chEap kiNd... [noO moRe seAtTLe pOop.]

im tired. almost insane but i can live. i want to cry.

still tons of things to do. sooo much that it's made me crabby. shit. can't entirely blame this one on hormones. math class--yup, i failed that one too--i snapped at cat and tina. damn it. we haven't started on this bunch of math problems we need to pass this thursday, on top of everything else.

cry.

haven't finished reading my filipino novel and that's just sad. i am doomed. really. i wish nami was here... hai. fil paper due on friday and im still halfway through the book.

es long test tomorrow.

lit orals thursday.

grabe... cry. cry. CRRRRRYY!!!

i can do this. i can. i really can.

fReeDoM iN sodDeN jeAns

she came with a screech : burst forth from my head

...the statement above always appears when i write here so i guess it's pretty much here forever.

one day without my nami. *sob. hai. two weeks na lang. two weeks. after my es exam on friday--or lit exam on wednesday, if im exempted from the es finals--im heading straight to paranaque. basta. uuwi na ko. spend time with my baby. bwahahahahaha.

it's raining torrents here. well, when i got here. sodden jeans. yippee. aching toes because of my benettons--there're chucks so there must be benettons. but no matter. im in cloud nine...

not for long.

well, yup to that too. fil paper due this friday. english research next week. two long tests tomorrow. a long test this wednesday. lit orals thursday. stuff in between. finals next week.

cry.

i can't even stay long. conferencing with miss lin.

that's more bad news, i guess.

toodles... more when i can.

ai, eto pala: finals in ES 12. sure that im gonna pass na there. yey. yun.

ha.

stiLl jApaNesE, bAby

confirmed. i have to part with my baby nami until the sem break. it needs to be english-ized and whatnot. (sigh.) ima miss her...

finals this monday in lab... haven't studied. haha.

naisip ko lang: blogging is sooo not the same when you're paying for it. crap...

nAmi-aRu?

ailabmailaftoff.

have a laptop. name's nami. she's japanese. nyork, nyork. tHank yOu tiTa bOng!!! aIwuRveyOu!!! haha. she gave it to me!!! [i kinda snooped but i still wasn't sure if she would give me one. so i wAs stiLl suRprisEd. swear.]

i still have to decipher the blasted thing... but im willing to wait... hai.

i hAb my lAptOp.

i lAb my lAptOp.

bWahAhAhAhAaAaAa!!!

hahA... i loOk soO hAgGard... puYat nA atA aKo niYan!!!

sob. i shall have to part with my laptop again... bye, darling. i shall miss you loads.

in the meantime, im trying to spend as much time as i can with my baby, japanese thingy notwithstanding.

btw, im in pque. but of corz u knew that.

i am in heaven. dreams... thank u, lord.